Wow! It’s been AGES since I was able to access my account (password wasn’t working for some reason), so I gave up after a while. Meanwhile, I’ve discovered Tumblr, and I think I’m in love.

Heres my URL: http://persephoneat.tumblr.com/.  I will probably go on there more often, but I’ll try and update this weekly. So, whats new…? Um, nothing, really. Oh! I got this amazingly huge poster- you know the ones that you see in the cinemas? Weeell, I got one from a friend who works at a printing company, they do advertisements and stuff like that. It’s absolutely huge, it takes up an entire wall! It’s from Alice In Wonderland, it has the two queens, the twins and- my favourite- the Cheshire Cats’ head just casually grinning in the corner. It’s quite detailed, very pretty. It doesn’t suit the whole French theme I’m kind of doing, but I like it. I’ll see if I can find a picture. Here it is! Amazing, isn’t it?! Of course, mine is much bigger.

Well, I’ve been having some ‘Friend issues’ at the moment, but out of the whole nasty thing I think I have gained a really good friend, which is nice. Just some advice: if you don’t WANT to be someones friend, that’s fine, but you shouldn’t pretend, because not only is it extremely hurtful and disappointing to the other person when they find out, but it’s a waste of time, really.

I’m reading the Wee Free Men for around the 100th time, but it’s a great book so I don’t mind.

I’ll write the blurb so you can get the idea of what it’s about. It’s by Terry Pratchett so it’s quite crazy.

“Theres trouble on the Aching farm- nightmares spreading down from the hills. And Tiffany Aching’s little brother has been stolen away. To get him back, Tiffany has a weapon (a frying pan) her granny’s magic book ( well, Diseases of the sheep)- and the Nac Mac Feegle, the Wee Free Men, the fightin’, thievin’ tiny blue-skinned pictsies who were thrown out of Fairyland for being Drunk and Disorderly…”

Like I said, it’s crazy, but a really great read. Oh well, that’s it for this week! I’m going to relax, sit back and do nothing, like I always do on Holidays.

xx

I went to a Halloween Party last night, and had loads of fun with some old friends from primary school that I haven’t seen in a while. We played charades, and made trick-or-treat bags, and had some yummy snacks and dinner, then went trick-or-treating. I left with a sugar buzz, but also a slightly melancholy mood because some of my closest friends have been going through some eating issues, which is becoming increasingly regular with teenage girls of late.

Let me explain. Most of the people in the friends group I was in are:

1. Perfectionists
2. Highly strung
3. Often Hyper
4. Loyal
5. Protective
6. Demanding
7. Empathetic
8. Beautiful
9. Blunt
10. Funny

And 2 out of 4 (myself not included) have had/ having an eating disorder. It’s incredibly difficult to stand by and watch as your friends worry about their bodies, starve themselves, do constant exercises, all because they want to look PRETTY. What the hell is pretty?! We have been force-fed images of ‘beautiful’, slim, sexy women since birth on television, adverts,billboards,newspapers, etc, and that has made us want to be like them, because if we don’t, the world will end, or we will be fat, and no-one will find us attractive. People need to love their bodies as they are, and eat healthy food at regular intervals, and exercise.

I’m not saying I’m perfect- I’ve been known to eat junk food, sit on the computer/ couch, eat lollies/chocolate, etc. HOWEVER, I do not do this every day, and I am aware of the consequences that happen to my body. Sometimes, I look at my stomach and say to myself  ”ugh, I’m getting fat..” or “I should probably go for a run tonight, and eat less cake”. Now which one sounds better?

Now, since I feel slightly hypocritical after eating a bowl or ice cream, I’m going to go on the exercise bike for a while. Adios.

Hooray!!

I’ve been unable to get on WordPress for ages lately, something was wrong with the cookies or something. Yum.

I made a Tumblr account-

http://persephoneat.tumblr.com/. What’s on there is basically random musings and pictures, so it will most likely be more updated on there, and it is easier to access, anyway.

Just been watching Merlin online. Ohmygosh. I want the DVDS for Christmas.  Some of the actors are sooooo attractive, especially Arthur. Merlin’s okay, but he does have pretty big stick-outy ears. Lancelot and Gwaine are good too, but you don’t see them much in the show anyways. Yep, Arthur is the hottest.

This isn’t much of a blog if no-one reads it, eh? Oh well. Last day of the holidays, spent a lovely afternoon in the sunshine with mum, picking flowers and making pretty things.

Now, normally I don’t like shopping.. unless it’s either;

1. For me
2. When I have money to splurge!

Well, today was a bit of both. I splurged at Smiggle, purchasing 3 rubbers, a pencil case (Rainbow, ohmygosh!) and a set of yummy smelling highlighters- Nearly $30 dollars in total! D:

Money runs out tooooo fast.

Well, the ‘for me’ bit was from my mother, because I needed clothes desperately. so she bought me a pair of jeans, 2 sets of pyjamas,  and some socks. Not very glamorous, (the sock part) but hey, they came in different colors. Just laughed quite a bit from a post from   http://thingsboganslike.wordpress.com/.

Check out post #174- Pyramids.  Hehehe.

-Shani

I’m sitting in the freezing cold kitchen at the computer, (Where the computer is apparently going to stay, even though soon we shall have a spare room where the computer would fit in perfectly) listening to “Imaginary” by Evanescence.

I linger in the doorway
Of alarm clocks screaming
Monsters calling my name
Let me stay
Where the wind will whisper to me
Where the raindrops
As there falling
Tell a story

In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me

Don’t say I’m not in touch
With this rampant chaos
Your reality
I know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge
The nightmare I built my own world to escape

Swallowed up in the sound of my screaming
Cannot stop for the fear of silent nights
Oh how I long for the deep sleep dreaming
The goddess of imaginary light

Ahh! Beautiful lyrics. Almost an hour ago, I was randomly searching for desktop pictures (I’m rather fussy about it.. So I like my computer being pretty, where’s the crime in that?) and I came upon the a really nice one called ‘Masquerade’.

“Tourniquet” by Evanescence

I tried to kill the pain
But only brought more
So much more
I lay dying
And I’m pouring crimson regret and betrayal
I’m dying, praying, bleeding and screaming
Am I too lost to be saved
Am I too lost?

My God my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My God my tourniquet
Return to me salvation

Do you remember me
Lost for so long
Will you be on the other side
Or will you forget me
I’m dying, praying, bleeding and screaming
Am I too lost to be saved
Am I too lost?

My God my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My God my tourniquet
Return to me salvation

I want to die!!!

My God my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My God my tourniquet
Return to me salvation

My wounds cry for the grave
My soul cries for deliverance
Will I be denied Christ
Tourniquet
My suicide

-Shani

• Clothes. Not just because I want new ones, I seriously NEED new clothes that fit me.
• A camera and a new phone. Like maybe a iPhone .. No, Shani. Dream on.
• A new graphics card for my computer so that I can play LoTRO (Lord of The Rings Online).
• New furniture to replace the mish-mashed collection I have. Preferably black.
• New paint on my walls. Oh, who am I kidding? A freaking new room.
• Nice nails.. or just nails at all. It’ll happen, eventually.
• A computer in my room. Or just to have the computer out of the bloody kitchen, IT’S COLD IN HERE!

• Slippers. Or Ugg Boots.
• Money. Lots of it, so I can get these things. God, I want to be able to have a job.
• *Sob*

1. I bite my nails (I’ve been trying to break the habit for years)
2. I don’t like sport. Of any kind. At all. In any way. Really.
3. I’m quite tall, but now I’m either shrinking or other people in my class are getting taller than me. I’m not sure if I like it or not.
4. 3 is my favorite number. 7 can go jump off a cliff.
5. I like making and eating food. Gotta stop eating Mi Goreng, I’m getting a little fat.
6. I want to die my hair purple, but I have a feeling that the school I’m at won’t appreciate the creativity.
7. I like words, and sometimes to me swearing just seems something a dumb person does when they’re angry because they don’t know how to let it out any other way.
8. I love animals. Especially cats. And dogs. And leopards. Pretty much any animal. Except insects. I’m getting a tattoo of a fox when I’m old enough.
9. I know I said I 8 things, but I’m a rebel, so I’m going to say that my family is pretty much the most important thing to me. I could probably live without any other friends. I don’t need friends. It’s nice having them, though. Below is a tattoo that I want on my left shoulder in a couple of years.

Hates

1. Illiterate, obnoxious people who don’t understand personal space
2. Crowded areas
3. Soap operas- the Bold and the Beautiful in particular
4. Repetitive noises
5. Sexists, racists, etc.
6. Being unwell
7. Olives and mushrooms
8. Smelly breath, unclean people
9. Monotone voices
10. Cities- flat, boring, covered in concrete with no place for anything to grow.

Loves

1. Gardening in Spring
2. Cooking
3. My family and friends
4. Reading/writing
5. Listening to music
6. Coffee + tea
7. Painting/ Art in general
8. English
9. Facebook.  Can’t live without it.
10. Love

-Shani